Teary Nite

Another teary nite ytd.
cry till i fall asleep again.
haix.
simply cant understand wat guys are tinking abt.
haix.
wonder did i make a correct decision sometimes.

being hurt for so many times.
i can understand how i cant force things to happen.
all i can do is to make things happen.
maybe?
i oso wonder when can i find my true love.
haix.

is e feeling tt matters most to mi.
no matter how nice one person can be to mi,
without e feeling,
i wouldnt lik tt person at all.

tried to give someone who claim he loves mi a chance ytd.
meet him up.
tried.
no feelings mean no feelings.
even wanting mi to treat him as frenz,
it is v hard oso to let myself allow him to be my frenz.
i simply dun lik e existence of him.

To my mr gip,
u might be reading tis.
u might not.
but no matter wat,
really thanks u for all e happy times given to mi by u.
Every moments spent with u is worth my tears,my sweat,my smile.=)
Simply enjoy every moments spent with u,
though it might be juz for a few hrs or less each time,
but really happy to spend my time with u.
=)

Glad things din worsen btw mi n mr gip after so much things had happen.
I simply love e existence of him.
I cant wait for my bday and his to arrive faster,
so tt we can spend enjoyable time tog.

I really hope things will chg to a better one soon.
Though i noe it might not happen,
but i still hope.
Life going on lik tis hurts mi still.
Hurts mi lik knife cutting deep down into my heart.
E feeling simply hurts.

I'll let things be till e day my heart really die ba.
mr gip say his heart is dead too.
guess so my heart will die real soon again.
haix.

Someone told mi to live my life for my own and base on my own tinkings.
how nice it can feel to be wrongly accuse?
sigh.
If by living my life base on my own tinkings will make mi lost someone dearly to mi,
i would rather not live my life using my own tinkings.
sigh.

i'm nuts.
haha.
been so long since i meet up my 3 princesses of dzps le.
when r we gonna meet huh?

lots and lots of tots in my mind,
tt cant be simply forgotten.
argh.
someone save mi pls.

i miss mr gip lots.
shall i meet him today?
haix.
miss miss miss.
wonder he got miss mi anot.
sigh.

i shall stop here and cont blogging later or wat ba.
=)