Mi,MySeLf&MyLiFe!!!

WHEN WILL ALL THESE BE OVER?
WHEN WILL ALL THESE BE OVER?
TIRED OF WAITING AND WAITING ALREADY...
I HAD ENUF OF WAITS IN MY LIFE ALREADY...

DIN I WAITED LONG ENUF FOR U TO APPEAR?
DIN I WAITED LONG ENUF TO FIND U,MY MAN?
MORE SUFFERING WILL BE ON E WAY RITE?
MORE SUFFERING WILL BE ON E WAY RITE?

Y CANT PPL BE MORE SIMPLE?
Y MUZ EVERYONE BE SO COMPLICATED?
Y?Y?Y?
Y CANT LIFE BE MORE SIMPLE?
LIK HOW I ALWAYS WANT IT TO BE?
Y?

I HATE LIFE!!!
I HATE MYSELF EVEN MORE!!!
I HATE I HATE I HATE MYSELF TO BE IN TIS WORLD,
GOD HAS TO BE FAIR ISNT IT?
WAT E POINT OF LETTING MI BEING ALIVE &SUFFER?

DIN I WAITED LONG ENUF FOR MY SO CALLED HAPPINESS TO APPEAR?
IF GOD DOESN'T WAN MI TO HAVE E HAPPINESS FOREVER,
DUN BOTHER TO GIF MI ANY IN E 1ST PLACE AND MAKE MI SUFFER SO MUCH NOW...
DO U NOE HOW MUCH MORE I'M SUFFERING NOW?
DO U NOE HOW MUCH MORE PAIN I'M IN NOW?

IS DERE ANYTHING WRONG BEING DEVOTED TO U?
FAITHFUL TO U?
LOVING U SO MUCH SO MUCH?
I DUN NEED ANY OTHER GUYS.
I DUN NEED ANY OTHER GUYS.
TO MI,
U R MY MAN...
MY LOVE...
DO U NOE HOW MUCH HURT I GOT FROM U ALL?
DO U NOE?

WHO CAN STILL BE HERE FOR MI WHEN I NEED SOMEONE SPECIAL ALOT ALOT ALOT?
WAT'S E POINT OF GETTING E FREEDOM I WAN YET I LOST U?
WAT'S E POINT OF HAVING EVERYTHING AND NOT U?
DO U NOE HOW MUCH MORE SUFFERING I GOT BY U LEAVING MI?

E PAIN I GOT NOW...
EMOTIONALLY...
PHYSICALLY...
DO U NOE HOW PAIN IT IS?
WONDERING WHEN WILL BE E DAY I'LL SICK...
WONDERING WHEN WILL BE E DAY TT I TURN BLIND FROM ALL THESE CRYING...
WONDERING WHEN WILL BE E DAY TT I LEAVE EVERYONE...
MAYBE BY THEN EVERYONE WILL NOE E PAIN OF LOSTING SOMEONE...


I'M A USELESS PERSON.
USELESS!!!
NO POINT HAVING MI ARO IN TIS WORLD ISN'T IT?
WAT'S E GOOD PARTS OF MI?
WHERE HAVE THEY GONE TO?

Changing into perm staff on 1st nov 2006...
Shld be feeling happy...
but i'm not...
once i've u to share my happiness,my sadness,my ups and downs...
but now,
only mi,myself to feel all those things again...

Weak,
Min...